Mood Swings

The past couple of days I have just been swinging back and forth between being happy and excited and being depressed as all hell. I start out being happy and motivated in the morning, and then by the afternoon I'm just sinking deeper and deeper into depression. Yesterday I nearly worked myself into a panic attack because I have no idea what I'm going to do once this job is done and I haven't really done any networking, but mostly I got freaked out because I don't think I'm productive enough. I feel overwhelmed all the time, even when there's no need to. I'm not very good at being an adult, it seems. Of course, I worried about this so much all day that by the time I got home, I was too exhausted to do much before I had to leave to go to trivia. Today... well, today was the same thing it almost always is. Wondering over and over and over again if I did the right thing or if I made the biggest mistake of my life. Not fun, let me tell you.

I read this suggestion to write out 5 things you're grateful for at the end of the day. It was on the Simple Dollar blog, which has a lot more in it than just financial advice. At any rate, I think it's something I want to try. Maybe it will help me have a more positive outlook on life. I'm not sure if I'm going to do it here or somewhere else. More and more I'm not likely that this blog could be potentially read by someone, even though I think it's a long shot. I'm wondering if there's anyway to make this private, although I don't suppose that there is. I just like having my information stored virtually, but I'm just feeling that this is something I don't want people reading. At least, not yet.